So a new year eh? 2012, is funny how every now and then humans advertise a new Armageddon or Apocalipsis.
Well guess that is a way of givining emotion to life.

I've constantly asked myself what will be my propuse for live, now that I'm going to study what I want.
I remember that when I was a little kid, I made a speech for my entire school, and high school, I was probably around nine or ten, and talked about tolerance or something similar I barely remeber the topic...but I  do remember me saying at the end "We all have the right to be happy."
My father then write me a letter that among others things said "I'm proud you, because you talk for the one that don't have a voice, and claimed their right to be heared."...
I must admit, that these days when I read that letter tears come to my face. Since that day, I decided I wanted to help people, the ones of you that now me well know I'm agnostic, I don't care for the existence or not of a god above, so I'm not trying to win a place in heaven, I'm not trying to avoid hell.I'm not trying to play the paper of "the good one"... I decided to help people, I decided that I always want to be the voice that claims for right, just because is what I consider right...

No, I'm not so good as it sounds in that las paragraph xD, I feel kind of lost, and I feel that I've to do all this by own at firs. Mainly because I believe I loose my "friends" or most of them. Maybe I keep one or two ...Is okay, I didn't made much to matain them. Guess I'm not the best friend you could ask for!Hehe, but I do try my best to be the kind of person that brings light to this world, there is enough pain, And I know everybody suffers, I know everybody is lonely...I know that is not the problem, but the way you try to solve it that matters. I'm really sick of hearing my "friends" complaining of how much their life sucks and don't do anything about it...
I'm mean c'mon!!!My mother works with children who's parents had done terrible things to them!Children in lonliness, children that day to day had to stand being beaten up for the ones that take care of them, just because that person got problems and don't know how to solve them as an adult! The funniest thing is that they hardly complain, they laugh and appreciate every single detail....they have what six?Seven?Eight? Hahaha and people that have a decent live, complain because "This world doesn't understand me at all, I want to kill myself!" is kind of lame.....
But wait!I'm not telling you that you should fake to be happy, no no, is okay to cry, is okay to complain, and is okay to tell your problems and to feel bad, but if you're going to live in pitty of yourself, and threating to kill yourself, without doing anyhting else that bother your loved ones, then you're worthless, or that's how I see it.

I love when people told me their problems even thou it scared me a bit too), because I believe that is  sign of trust, I feel that is an oportunitty to help someone!
But Oh how I hate when people just tell me their problems to make me feel pitty for them....I've discover that pitty don't save anyone, it doesn't help anyone!Idoesn't help have pitty for a friend,it doesn't help to have pitty for a begger and give it two coins, you think you're being a good person for doing that?....Because I don't....I decided I won't have pitty, nor mercy....But I do believe in justice and in that phrase I said as a kid "Everyone have the right to be happy." That will be my ideology.
So even if I feel scared for the change, even if I feel lonely, I'll follow that other phrase I heared sometime, somewhere "Fight for what you believe, even if that mean to fight alone."

(Yes dears, I love phrases >:'D)

So I believe sometimes this journals are kind of helpful to organize ideas!
Finally Sorry for the awful grammar english is not my natal language D: and I make tons of mistakes >.<....
Also if you read all that  (which I hardly  doubt it) you must be really bored!xD But thank you.~
Oh oh oh and Have a great 2012!! <3 "Que el fin del mundo los pille bailando!" -Sabina /"That the end of the world finds you dancing!"

"El día del Armagedón, no quiero estar tras la puerta, sino soñando bien alerta, donde este a salvo de perdón!"~ -Silvio Rodríguez